Well It's The Start Of A New Year!

I remember one of the staff members at CHOC saying how he had more problems not being homeless then he had when he was actually homeless. I can so relate to this!

There are bills that have to be paid (and on time) and there is a little boredom that comes with both living in a shelter and actually having your own place.

I made a budget for myself and it seems that I need at least another hundred dollars a month just to break even. I didn't have this problem when I was living at the shelter.

I'm grateful to finally have a place to live that I can call my own. It's not a perfect life but what is perfect?

I do miss the people at the shelter - both the staff members and the residents who are still living at the shelter.

While at the shelter there was a meeting and the shelter's policy was discussed. We were told not to think of the shelter as a permanent place to live, only a temporary stop on the road to getting and living in our own place.

I find it kind of miraculous that I'm able to have an apartment and even being able to have a car. People ask me about that car too. I was able to purchase the car for $200 and the paperwork cost more than the car did! LOL! The car needs some work and my car inspection is coming up soon.

I have bills but I also have a budget that I have to stick to.

All in all I have been blessed with many good things happening in my life.

I hope 2014 is the best year of my life!

I just got finished creating a budget for myself and it doesn't look too pretty. I would have to make at least $100 more and even then that's just for the minimum.
The rent that I pay is the biggest expense that I have so far.
Little things add up!

Of course I'm going to have to do some adjusting if I want to come out even by the end of the month.

I really don't want to cut anything out of the budget that I made because it is at its bare minimum now!

Snowed In

Well this is Tuesday and I'm kind of snowed in. But today I went out and started my car because its just been sitting for the last few days.

I'm kind of glad to be snowed in because I went shopping and got some groceries the day before it was expected to snow. We have had 2 snow storms in the past 7 days.

The community college that I go to was closed today because of the "anticipated" weather. But we really didn't have to go to school today because it was "reading" day.

I don't have to go back to class until Thursday and I hope the snow is gone by then.

I had made an appointment to get my car checked at the dealer for tommorrow but I re-scheduled it to a later date. Hopefully the snow will be gone by then.

I'm doing laundry now and getting ready to eat some left-over turkey for dinner.

Nearing The End

Well, I'm nearing the end of the semester of the college courses I am taking - which I'm not doing very well in.

My panic attacks have quieted down a bit after I had a meeting with one of my CTI people. Basically what he said was that I shouldn't worry too much about it and that there may be a lot of options for me. I don't want to leave my apartment. It's cozy and I have a cat now.

Before the talk with the counselor I was worrying very badly. I just tried to calm down and I will have to cross that bridge when I get to it - hopefully being able to stay in my apartment.

I'm at the college now waiting for the teacher and after this class I can go back to my apartment.

Today I Had A Panic Attack!

Today I had a panic attack! I was worrying about passing my courses at the community college.

That led me to worrying about my student financial aid which made me worry about the subsidy program that I am in. The program only lasts for two years (if that) and I don't know what I'm going to do when my 2 years are up.

I can't afford to pay my rent without the subsidy program and I just gotta find a solution for this.

I've really had a vey bad anxiety attack. What if I don't pass my courses? What happens if my student financial aid was cancelled? Then I wouldn't be able to afford the classes let alone my apartment.

I think I almost worried myself sick agonizing over this.

I have calmed down a little but I'm still thinking about it.