Wednesday, March 13, 2013

I decided to "sweat" out my cold by wearing a lot of clothes to bed and covering up with the big spread that was on my bed.

At 3:38 in the morning I woke up and I knew that I was feeling better - less coughing.

Since it was so early in the morning I decided to go back to bed to get as much sleep as I could.

Was awakened (along with everyone else) at 6:30 am.  I had to have my first cigarette of the day - outside of course - and then went back inside to have my cup of coffee.

Breakfast today was oatmeal but I really didn't feel in the mood for it and decided to skip it today.

I had a 3 pm appointment with a caseworker today to help me get my tax records together but she came at around 10:30 am to meet with someone else but that someone else wasn't here so she took me instead.  She drove me to her office and she let me use her computer to find my income records.  It took a while but I was able to find a place online to have it mailed to me by filling out a form.  We also took a look at my court docket to see how my trial was progressing and I found out that the court was in the process of scheduling a hearing date.

Immediately this brought a panic throughout my entire body.  I am thinking the orse.  I have been through so many "motion denied" hearings that I was afraid that this would be no exception.  Now I have to wait to be notified of a hearing date.  I may have to ask for a continuance because I'm still waiting on an answer from the letter that I sent to the President Judge regarding my appeal.

Lunch was a cheese-tortilla-type thing, along with 'tater' tots.  The water machine bottle is still broken and there is no replacement bottle so I just make due with ice in a cup.  I'm sure my bad mood has to do with seeing that a hearing is scheduled to be scheduled and immediately I think of the worst and its really bringing me down.

I am so bored here but I know that a lot of this has to do with my mood. 

A few of the other residents are watching a new Pope being elected on TV but I'm not interested in that.  Maybe if I take a little nap I will feel better and I will know better about what I want to do.....

I got the news that my medical insurance kicked in today!  My two prescriptions are for Prozac which is supposed to help with my (major) depression and the other prescription is for Risperidone which is supposed to help me sleep.  I told my doctor that it takes a good two hours for me to finally fall asleep after I go to bed so she prescribed the risperidone.

It seems that prescription drugs are a hot commodity in this place so the less you talk about your prescription(s) the better!

Before this the strongest prescriptions that I ever took was for antibiotics and that was it.  Now that I am starting to take these 2 medications for the first time I have to see what they will do to my system.

I certainly hope that the Prozac helps my mood because I'm very depressed now.  The ongoing court battle with my house is getting to me and I'm worried about it and I am worrying about it excessively which can't be good for me and my situation.

The head of the shelter made an announcement about the shelter and about the state of the shelter (and other shelters) and how the government funding for them has decreased.  She wants to get the residents here more involved about raising the awareness of the homeless.  I get the feeling that the majority  of the people here are just not interested though.

For right now I just want to see how these pills will affect me.

March 9, 2013

Today was a Saturday and there was finally a nice break in the weather.

I awoke just before the 6:30 am "call" when the lights were turned on.

It still took me quite a few - maybe 15 minutes - minutes to actually "wake up" enough to go to my locker to get my cigarettes so that I could have my first cigarette of the day before the breakfast call.  I didn't make it though because by the time I got my cigarettes and sat down at my table it was time for breakfast!

March 8, 2013

After lying awake for nearly 3 hours I finally fell asleep.  I wanted so badly to get up and have a cigarette but once you go to bed you're not allowed to leave the sleep room - as far as I know - until the next morning.

Sunday, March 7, 2013

I didn't sleep in my bed last night. Three of us slept in the truck until about 5:30am. By that time the shelter doors were open and I went inside to use the bathroom but came right back out afterwards. While we were sitting in the truck, a police car drove up to the front of the shelter. We couldn't see what was going on and them the police car drove away. We stayed in the truck until a bit past 7 and then we went inside. I couldn't find out why the police car had been here. Cereal and milk were for breakfast but still had half a hoagie left and I ate that for breakfast instead. I'm feeling a lot sleepy now - probably because I slept for a good two hours in the truck. I did manage to get some cigarettes though. Tried to take a nap but someone woke me up because the church breakfast was here. Scrambled eggs, toast with butter, chicken nuggets and French fries was the church breakfast - delicious! The regular lunch was at around 11:45. it was chicken noodle soup and hot dogs. I didn't eat it. I wasn't hungry. I had just had the church breakfast and I had half a hoagie for breakfast. I took a nap until dinner. Dinner was fish, noodles and carrots and I had a second helping of fish. A verbal argument happened over the computer and now nobody can play games on it. Now the computer can only be used for resumes and things like that. Another argument happened between two guys. One was joking around and the other guy said he was dis-respecting him. The weather is starting to get a little bit more warmer and some of the residents are enjoying the outside more. Me? I'm feeling kind of bored and frustrated because I don't have what I want. Things are taking a lo g time and I don't like it one bit! I went to bed at 9.

Saturday, March 6, 2013

The weekend! I got up around 6am and went out to the front. Had a cup of coffee and a cigarette and I took my medications. Breakfast was scrapple and grits. I'm rolling cigarettes now. One of the residents was sick with bronchitis and a staff member drove him to the emergency room and I went along for the ride. Back at the shelter I crocheted a little and then I did some more work on the resume on the computer. I can't think of anything else to add to it so I'm going to show it to the staff member on Monday. Lunch was hamburgers, bread and French fries. There was something else with it. It looked like a meat patty and someone told me that it was turkey. One of the women residents will be moving to her new place on Monday. She's going to have her own room but she will be sharing a bathroom and kitchen with other tenants. I would love to see what her place looks like so I offered to help her move. Dinner was chicken, noodles, carrots and pecan pie for dessert. A couple of us decided we were going to go out. The resident that had the truck was going out to do his laundry and he let a couple of us tag along with him to him company. Well, he got his laundry done and we got some whiskey and get back to the shelter. We slept in the truck.